You gotta run real far before you ever feel close to home.
– Eric Hutchinson
I remember listening to that line as I was first moving away from home. I spent two days with my dad carrying my life in a UHaul truck halfway across the country, and all I could think was that I was so ready to get away from home and explore what being on my own would be like.
Spend a long enough time home (or anywhere), and you start to find things you don’t like. If you develop a negative attitude, like I had, all you see are the parts you don’t like.
I listened to that line and I wondered if it would actually come true.
A few months of being on my own treated me well, and I couldn’t think of much I missed, aside from my loved ones.
But as those months became a year and beyond, I started feeling it. It’s not the feeling of being “homesick.” It’s not hating the place you’re currently in. It’s actually just as the line describes it.
I took time away, and in that time, started to gain perspective about “home.” I stopped focusing on the things I hadn’t liked, and I started realizing everything that I loved.
I ran real far, and for the first time, felt close to home.
I’ll conclude with another quote I looked at often in those weeks before my departure:
I just need some time away
To remember why I stay.
Here’s to home.